In some ways, it seems like any other typical Monday during the year. I would usually be sitting on the computer, checking the news on Jayski or NASCAR.com or any other of the many racing news resources out there. I’d probably be getting set for next week’s race, too, analyzing the silly season rumors and coming up with the next course of action in getting C2C new clients and new projects.
But, this week will be different.
I look back on this year – gosh, I can’t even believe it’s been this long already – and I think about all that’s happened. This was our rookie year. Was it a set-the-world-on-fire type of year? No. But it was successful. We accomplished a lot and we learned even more. But still, in retrospect, I look back on the things we did and did not do, and the ways we could have done them differently. There were a lot of things that affected me in ways I never imagined; still others that had no effect on me at all, to my surprise.
First, let me congratulate Jimmie Johnson on yet another Cup Series championship. No matter what your stance or personal opinion of him, he knows how to win the Chase. He, Chad Knaus, and Rick Hendrick have something good going that few teams in any sport rarely ever find and use to its full potential. To say that we may never again in our lifetime see the feat of five consecutive Cup Series championships is a very real possibility. Johnson has secured his place in NASCAR legend, and I believe he will continue to do so long before he decides to put away the steering wheel and retire.
This season has been so much of a roller coaster for all of us here at C2C. It was made up of moments of sheer & absolute frustration and moments of pure elation and hope. I felt immense pride and utter heartbreak and every emotion imaginable in between. I learned a lot about this sport that I love and I discovered some things that I kind of wish I didn’t know. I’ve made friendships that will last a lifetime and seen the divide grow larger between myself and former friends. I’ve questioned my faith and grown in it as well. And, probably most important of all, I’ve learned a little bit more about my purpose in life.
I think back to January, when Dana Tomes got in touch with me about C2C designing their race vehicles for this season. I’ll never forget (and I wish I still had it) the voicemail he left on my phone. Mind you, this was when I was still adjusting to the shock that people were taking interest in having us do work for them. Hearing him talk about their plans for Nationwide in that 2-minute clip of audio on my phone was so surreal, and in many ways, it still is. Part of me thought I was way in over my head. Maybe I was. Maybe I still am. But Dana believed in me enough to give me that chance.
I remember how hyped up I was about Daytona, having a paint scheme debut with Herd at the mecca of motorsports. He and I spent hours going over and revising the design, which was basic, but at the time that was all we could do. It was exciting, the buildup to that first race. It was the realization of a dream that I had long held since I started doing this as a hobby. To me it was greater than my high school graduation, that’s just how immense the event was to me. I’ll never forget jumping for joy at the mere sight of the rear quarter panel of the 75 Dodge at the outset of the first Nationwide practice session at Daytona. I know Jerry Punch was the guy walking by it, but I can’t remember what he said – I just knew my car, even though it was a tiny piece of it, had made it onto national television. And in that brief, shining moment, my dream came true.
My wish, though, was that I had been able to do a better job of designing that car. It didn’t come out the way we had imagined. I took it a little hard at first – I expected to come out swinging, full force, with unbridled creativity. What we got wasn’t great. But this is where I learned the first of many hard lessons I would wind up learning this year: you can’t expect to set the world on fire when you’ve just stepped foot into it. I hadn’t figured out the technique yet. In a world dominated by professionals, I was still very much a novice, even if my peers in the sim painting community thought I was good at what I did. But an even more important lesson was learned as a result, and that lesson was there is always room to improve and perfect.
Apart from Herd, I was lucky enough to be introduced to Ted Musgrave and his wife, Debi. Both of them have been extremely supportive of C2C’s endeavors. It’s interesting, because at the outset of this journey I didn’t expect to wind up working with them as closely as I have this year. In their struggle to find sponsorship, we’ve been right there beside them, helping them out. For me I think it’s an exercise in loyalty and commitment – as both a fan and someone who admires the heck out of Ted, I want to see him back out there throwing down with Todd Bodine, Mike Skinner, and Ron Hornaday. And if what I do makes it possible for him to go back out there and do what he does best, then I’m honored for the opportunity.
We got pretty close to putting him back in a truck full-time, too, but sponsorship talks fell through late in the game. It’s a true testament to the state of the sport when it’s a struggle to find a major sponsor for a former NASCAR Truck Series champion. But that’s the goal for this off-season: to put him in a truck for the season next year.
In April, we got our second shot with Herd to design their paint scheme for their sponsor, DuVita. We had already gotten the scheme idea nailed down in late January, but it was waiting to see what kind of financial situation Herd would be in before we committed to the design. There had been another scheme that was to be run at Auto Club and Las Vegas had they qualified, but obviously that never materialized. So Dana and the Herd Racing guys set their sights on Nashville.
In a way, the pressure was on to make this scheme perfect – which would have been as close to the actual rendering of the car as possible. I was so tense about it because, when I designed the car, I didn’t make the graphics as vector art. That was the case with the Dodge, too, and why it turned out the way it did. So, I painstakingly redrew all of the graphics by hand, remade some of the logos for sponsors for that race, and sent it off to Herd’s graphics printing folks.
It wasn’t until a little after midnight on March 24th that I got an e-mail from Dana with the subject line reading: Congratulations!! The first line said it all: “Your car design was a hit. We had a massive party tonight and you got the compliments my man!” The attached photos told the story in detail. It turned out beautifully. Not perfect, but it was a far cry from my first attempt. I felt vindicated, like I had proved I was able to step it up and exceed expectations.
As was the case with Daytona, when the Herd gang unloaded at Nashville, I was always checking on NASCAR.com to see what was happening in practice. When the second session ended and Brett had managed to eke out the slowest lap time, I started to worry. As it turned out, bad luck emerged victorious again after the ignition system and wiring in the car was completely fried after the crew performed emergency surgery on the fuel cell rack. There was nothing that could be done. It was just another part of racing, another hard lesson to be learned – nothing is ever as easy as people make it look. The hit Herd took because of it crippled the Nationwide program for the rest of the year.
That’s not to say all was lost. JD Leedy, the one who sponsored Herd’s Daytona car, contacted me about doing some design work for EyeEarn. They had expressed interest in motorsports, but wanted to take it slow. The series chosen was the Pro All Star Series southern division, the driver, Michael Gaier.
The third car I would do for Herd was the EyeEarn Ford, and after critiquing and going over the DuVita design with a fine-tooth comb and picking up on the inherent flaws in the design, I went to work on something that was simple but dramatic, easy on the eyes but would grab attention. About two months later, in June, I saw the finished product. And it was a stunner – to me anyway.
Michael and I have become pretty good friends since JD first introduced us to each other, and I’m thankful that he did because Michael’s probably one of the most level-headed racers I’ve met. He’s also very particular about his car, which is something that makes working with him such fun. I’m a very detail oriented person, and while I understand some people are pretty mum on design details, Michael doesn’t hesitate to let me know whether he likes something or doesn’t like something. So when I got his stamp of approval on the design, I knew it had to be good. But seeing it in pictures was astounding.
Maybe I’m biased, but it stood out from the rest of the field in a subtle way. There was a perceptible difference in the way that car looked and the way the others looked. Some were extremely bright with colors that clashed or took away from the overall design, others were plain and simple (which isn’t necessarily a bad thing.) But Michael’s car had a look all its own.
But like the last two designs, bad luck struck twice more. In its debut at Ace Speedway, Michael got spun coming off the fourth turn on lap 5, breaking a track bar mount and effectively ending his night. Weeks later at Orange County Speedway, Michael managed to make it through up to lap 80 or so before the rear end gave out, and again ended his night. With the cost of maintaining and repairing the car mounting, the sponsorship shifted to the Legends car, which had pre-made graphics already on the car. Yet another lesson was learned: money, not gas, makes a race car go round.
Disappointing though it was, a web show called Weekend Warriors TV came out and covered the EyeEarn late model’s debut at Ace Speedway, and shot a feature about the car and Michael. (See it here http://weekendwarriorstv.com/home/2010/06/08/episode-14/) It was a big deal, and being a creative and sentimental person, I loved seeing the artistic and creative way they portrayed the car.
As this was going on, Dana came back and announced he was running full-time in the APR Superleague’s F3 series, the sanctioning body for one of the country’s largest powerboat racing series. It was a stretch for us – we hadn’t necessarily anticipated getting into boat racing, but we took the challenge head on. I took the back seat on the design (though I did draw up the template) and let Andrew Barca turn it out. He did a great job, and by the end of the season for the Superleague, Dana had finished 7th in points and won Rookie of the Year honors.
For a few months, nothing seemed to be happening on the design front, so my focus turned to the business aspect of it. I felt like I had wasted a lot of time waiting to see what would happen with sponsors and designs, and as a result, jumped in late in preparing for the 2011 season.
I took the opportunity to be at Darlington for the truck race in order to make contacts and do some kind of networking. Being in the pits was about as close as I was going to get to doing that – I knew if I really wanted to get things done, I needed a garage pass, but I had no such luck. Not this year anyway. But I made due. Looking back, I realized that I had the right idea, but I was going about executing it the wrong way. I was going to crew members, not the PR or marketing people (save for one, who I will get to in a minute.) I was still thinking linearly, like a fan, seeing the unwritten chain of command. It wasn’t until just recently that I realized that the track was not necessarily the place I needed to meet people at. But, while I was there, I met a lot of nice folks who seemed genuinely interested in the work I had with me. I even had a nice conversation with a couple on pit road – spent a good half-hour just talking to them, and I realized that, despite the calculated attitude a lot of the team members walked around pit road with, they were just normal folks with a passion for racing. It was such a relief, to me, to know that these people were big fans of the sport too, and they weren’t afraid to wear it out on their sleeves.
I’ll also never forget the crew for the two Rick Ware Racing trucks, who, when I presented my portfolio to them, were not only immediately drawn into it, but were just as polite and friendly as anyone I’d ever met. One thing you need to understand about me is I’m extremely shy, and it took everything in me to even break the ice. It’s so unlike me to do that kind of thing. But they were absolutely some of the nicest folks I have ever had the privilege of meeting.
The PR person I mentioned, well…let’s just say it was a blast from my past. I used to be friends with this person for a long time, and I knew that this person was working for a particular team that has both a presence in Trucks and Nationwide. It was an awkward meeting. I had hoped against all hope that I wouldn’t run into this person because of that awkwardness, but lo and behold, I did. I gave this person some of my work and went on my way, but it bothered me for the longest time afterwards because, while we used to be such good friends, it was nothing but business now.
It’s never easy for anyone to have a falling out with friends. It’s especially never easy when you have to put up a front in order to do your job. But nothing compares to having to put up that front in front of the person you had a falling out with. I won’t go into any details about the matter, but for a few weeks following that chance meeting, I did a lot of self-examining and decided that it was just the way it was going to have to be. There were no ill feelings, and there still aren’t. But it will be tough not to feel a little sad. That’s another lesson I learned: this sport changes you.
That aside, the next big event, and indeed the most recent, was the partnership between C2C and Comp-Cal. Brian Wittkamp, the owner of Comp-Cal, has been extremely helpful in every aspect of improving our design process and getting things to transfer over quickly to vinyl so that his company can do the wrap. On top of that, the experience and the knowledge of the sport that he has is incredibly beneficial. If you’re making a list, add this lesson to it: you don’t have to do difficult things on your own. The only thing holding you back is a simple request for help.
Looking back on the last eleven months, I see what this sport has done for me and to me. It’s changed me in ways I can’t even begin to describe. I’ve come out of a solid shell of anxiety and shyness to put myself and my work out on the line. I think – no, I know – I’ve done some things that have alienated some of my longtime friends. Not intentionally, but…chasing a dream has a price. And if that person I mentioned is reading this, I didn’t understand then, but I do now. I know the price that we all have to pay in order to do this. It doesn’t matter if you’re building motors, hanging sheet metal, painting the car, or designing it….we’re all having to give a piece of ourselves and those around us in order to make it in this sport. It’s tested my faith in God, my friends, my family, and myself.
But, it’s also given me something worth more than its weight in solid gold: purpose.
I had a long conversation with my buddy, Tom Hunsicker Jr., the Friday before last, about how I was feeling about the state of the sport – and in general, my own reasons for being in it. I wondered if I could really hack it, if I really had what it took or if this entire year was one big fluke. After about an hour or so of talking, I realized something quite profound: my purpose in this sport is not simply to design race cars. It’s not even about me. It’s not ambition that drives me.
Ambition, while good for those looking to advance their careers, is something that cannot be expected to sustain you in the pursuit of your dreams. Purpose with ambition, however, will. But, that purpose must be something near and dear to your heart. Purpose defines us and gives us a reason to hold on even when the final thread is unraveling. Purpose tells us there’s a reason for suffering and purpose gives us a sense of contentment with where we’re at in our pursuits.
I thought my purpose was to help others, but instead, I believe, it’s actually to serve others. Helping means you’re trying to fix something. Serving means you’re giving freely of yourself in order to make a positive impact on people or circumstances. And I realized that, right now, God has me in the lives of the people I work with because I have the power to make a positive change in their lives. Maybe it’s rekindling the passions they have for this sport. Maybe it’s to give them hope for tomorrow. Maybe it’s just simply altering their life’s path in a direction that brings them closer to God. But I know it’s not about me. God gave me a gift, and it’s more than drawing shapes and patterns on a drawing of a race car.
All of what has happened this year – my rookie year in racing – has made me a better person. I’ve drawn closer to God, and I’ve realized a lot about human nature and my own nature. And as we head into Thanksgiving, Christmas, and the New Year, I encourage you to take the time to be thankful for all that you have, to give with all your heart, and to start brand new.
My favorite memory of this season goes back to February, the day Nationwide qualifying got rained out and the night the truck race was supposed to be held on. Up until that point, I had never seen real, REAL snow. It was bitterly cold and raining where I was, and I knew it was bad news for those in Daytona Beach. But what was amazing was, around six in the evening, the rain changed to snow. And it snowed all night – we had at least a foot of snow in some places. I’ve lived in the Lowcountry of South Carolina all of my life and never saw more than half an inch of snow – but that night I was literally trudging in it, playing in it like a little kid. Imagine a 19-year-old guy, still very much a fan, who was still riding high off the knowledge that he had designed a NASCAR Nationwide Series car, playing in the snow like a little kid again. And then think about how perfect that moment must have been.
For me, that night, all was right in the world. I stayed up that entire night, watching it snow, thinking about where the rest of the year would take me, a world full of possibilities and dreams yet to be realized. That night, I felt as if God were standing behind me, a hand on my shoulder, telling me that beauty is everywhere, that the simplest things are often the things we tend to overlook while we go through the motions of the day, or while we get lost in the pursuit of glory or fame. We complain so often about the weather without even seeing the simple beauty behind it, the glory and grandeur of the Creator giving us the simple gifts of dreams, and then giving us the faith and courage to chase them with all of our hearts. But sitting there on my back porch, watching these little white flakes of snow falling and glowing in the streetlights, it was like he was saying “No matter what happens, always, always take the time to see the beauty in what you do, and appreciate the meaning in all things.”
December 19th will mark one year since I began doing this professionally. It’s amazing because I remember praying so hard the night of the Sprint Cup awards banquet last December, tears in my eyes, asking God for the chance to do this, to chase this dream. And He gave me my heart’s desire. That Christmas will always be special for me, and it makes me wonder what this holiday season holds.
It means so much to me to share this with you, the reader. You must understand, I don’t see this as a job. This is my mission in life. If I touched your heart, then I’ve done what I’m here to do. This is not about me, though. This is about you. This is me trying to show you that even the simplest things mean something so profound sometimes. This is me trying to show the side of racing that you don’t always get to see. And this is me telling you, that if you want something bad enough, give it to God, ask for courage, and chase your dream with all of your heart. And don’t let anyone tell you it will never happen. So long as you keep hope, and so long as there is breath in your lungs, as long as you hold onto that dream, one day it will come to pass.
I want to give a big THANK YOU to Tom Hunsicker Jr., Dana Tomes & the crew at Herd Racing, Brett Rowe, JD Leedy, Ted & Debi Musgrave, Jayson Kaplan, Michael Gaier, Brian Wittkamp & the team at Comp-Cal, Matt Rolfe, Andrew Barca, Jake Berry, Manuel Ortiz, Chris Little, & all of the people who have stood beside me, encouraged me, and believed in what I’m doing. This would not be possible without you guys, and I couldn’t ask for a better group of people to have in my corner.
Here’s to 2011.
November 22, 2010
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